Post by /Sad/~rain on Dec 26, 2008 15:50:27 GMT -5
Being different is a sin
that I commit
[/sup] with a that I commit
and you better not mess with me
for I always have knives with me.
It doesn't matter that I am only 15
and will blow my candles out on 4th April
'cos I am a girl that commits sins with a smile.[/ul]
[-Appearance;
Fading to gray but glowing like rainbow.
It's long since forgotten what is Raina's true looks. Now she exists as glamorous rebel that is quite out of ordinary. First, there is her unusual hair. It is cut very short, barely covering her multiple times pierced ears but otherwise cut in almost bob like manner, with "window" around her face. Her hair is also very thick and some laughs her hair now looks like a helmet more than anything. She had dyed them to pure black color with different shade of purple highlights.
Due to some accident in childhood, she has not got the best eyesight in New York but she wears contact lenses that makes her vision be more clear than a natural one. And they are no usual color, too, being bright purple. They are so bright that almost seem to glow at night. And as no one has seen her without them, it is often believed it is her real eye color. Her dark eyelashes are thick and above them, two mismatched eye brows stand - one being prettily shaped like arch and other like broken bird wing. Her skin is pale but not unhealthy so, only prettily, and smooth, like silk and it makes her face look quite beautiful.
Her body is near perfection for a kid like her, already having much of the model's qualities. Long legs, matching upper parts, long neck and arms with slender fingers plus, she is neither only skin and bones or fat. It is visible she spends a lot of time doing exercises or just has very active lifestyle. Her face looks quite triangular, with small and tine bit pointed chin, small but full mouth, nice nose and her big, unusual eyes.
Her daring clothes only underlines her pretty body shape all the more. She prefers tight pants or mini skirts and tops that clings to her body as well as fishnet gloves and knee high boots. It is in either purple or black colors, often adorned with silver or simple metal. Sometimes she wears something very free and flowing but whatever she wears it won't slow her down - she prefers to be feel free. "I better walk around naked than wear clothes that doesn't allow me to move." she has stated long ago.
Raina likes bright metal-like jewelry and like mentioned previously, she has multiple piercings in ears. But those are not only ones - there is one in brow and in her belly button. Two earrings on her right ear are always connected with small chain. And on her right upper arm there is tattoo of black thorned rose.
It's hard to catch a moment when she is serious, usually she is grinning, showing her pearly white teeth. Her laugh is light and airy just like her voice and many admits she would be great singer. Her lip gloss is light, just like rest of her make up - only thing she seems to apply a lot sometimes is eye shadows that are almost like artwork every time.
Yeah, she is impressive girl, especially considering that she is so mysterious to the world. Many boys would be ready to give their right hand to call her his girlfriend. She shines like a superstar when she suddenly appears on streets and no one could guess how she is withering away on inside. There are only few marks of the truth on her body, like long scars on her back that she always hide.
[-Personality;
Whatever you think about her after seeing or even hearing her speak is probably completely not right when we talk about real Raina. Because under the make up, the cool clothes and brave attitude there is a girl that is ashamed and embarrassed of who she is.
It's not that she has low self esteem but she is very angry and upset with her self for what she did in the past, about the fact she couldn't be strong enough to fight cool kids off and be rebel like now and that she did all the things she regrets doing now. She would give a lot to change those things.
Raina has learned to hide her emotions perfectly and so, everyone sees only the bright, somewhat friendly yet, a bit stuck up girl. Those, of course, along with adventurous and sarcastic traits are sides of her personality for real, too. It's just that she never reveals her fully to someone.
She is slightly a dreamer, wishing for a world, a city or a place at least, where everyone could be equal without being the same. She says she knows it's possible, that the time just hasn't come. Sometimes, when she knows no one is looking, she writes poems and sings them but those aren't poems one would expect to hear from her. Those show her more sensitive and much more hurt part of her. Right now, she will almost never show you that she is hurt and just snap a witty remark back.
People in Upper and Lower New York knows that she is quite kind at times. She will never pass an old person in need of help or a child being bullied or anything of that sorts - it is surprising, yes, but people has gotten used to it in these three years.
She does act like spoiled kid in Upper New York sometimes. It's just fun.... Or was fun. But now it's somewhat expected from her so she does her role way and is the awesome model that could ask you to run on the other side of world for a glass of some special juice and later demand you to sit down and rest when you need to carry some papers around.
She is also very tired of pretending. But she enjoys that she can't be hurt like this. In fact, something is broken in her. She can't cry anymore. For some reason, after her foster mother went in koma, she doesn't cry anymore.
Raina is somewhat a sweet and even clinging girl to the ones she likes. She is quite protective and even jealous, especially when it comes to her Underground family and friends. "I won't let anyone take the last thing dear to me" she has sworn to her self long ago.
She is big enemy, though. She is ready to do a lot to crush her enemies, use cunnings, tricks, anything. It comes out of the fact she is stubborn and doesn't like to give up in general. She can be even somewhat cruel to the ones she dislike and being as straightforward as she is, she won't hide she doesn't like you... or that she does.
She is a girl that laughs most of the time and will kill you laughing, too. She says that there is nothing she can't do without a smile and that it's her trademark. But behind the smile, she is often dying. She just has no other choice but be like this, she has destroyed all turning back paths. So, she goes forward, trough and over anything, with a smile.
Around now, she has become mix of both her previously wanted personality and the girl she is in reality. She still suffers because of that sometimes, wanting to be just a normal girl with normal problems and normal attitude but mostly, she deals with it normally.
No one really gets what type of girl she is. Including her self. But what we really know is that she loves freedom the most, either it's physical or mental freedom.
[-History;
My life; nothing more than endless theater that I am tired to play at.
Raina doesn't know her real parents or her real family. Right after birth, she was taken away from them and put up for adoption for some unknown reason (She assumes she was just unneeded). She was adopted by a rich couple and raised her with love and care. But for some reason, she couldn't love them fully. As long as she remembered her self, she knew these were not her real parents and always thought of them as her good friends, not her parents.
She was always rebellious child, one that knew how to take care of her self (Or rather - tried to appear so) but when she turned twelve, she really had no other choice but to become independent. The reason was simple - her foster father did a suicide when his business almost went bankrupt and her mother sunk in depression after saving the business. She did nothing more than bury her self in work, overworking her self and not paying attention to anyone.
It was the time of her downfall at school. If before she was just different but not bullied, now she was also bullied - all that she did was wrong. So, she became like the rest - drunk, smoke, went with boys and did things that disgusted her a lot deep down. But she wasn't strong enough to be on her own, to stand against them.
No one at home except the old butler and her caretaker liked Raina as they assumed she was a spoiled brat. So, she started to wander out of the house more and more, until one day she lost her way back home. For a week, she wandered around the worse parts of New York until a man called Acacius found her passed out between garbages. He took her down, yes, to the Underground and his wife took care of her until she got better.
Raina was horrified to find how people lived down here. And she was amazed that someone could be different here. So, she made a goal - she will help these people, no matter how hard it was. So, when she returned in Upper New York, she changed her life completely. Considering her mother had went to mental hospital and that her nice uncle didn't care much about her, it wasn't hard to do.
First, she changed her appearance and learned how to defend her self. And then she returned in school, starting her own trend. Of course, she still had to drink and smoke and all that to keep the cool image but it was much different as being one of the rest. With time, it became a unchangeable mask for her, being this rebellious, cool kid who hurt all before they could hurt her. No one had idea how hard it actually was (And is) for her.
All but Ryan. She had met him in the Underground, even lived with him in the same house as he is Acacius son and they had became best friends. He knew what kind of girl, how hurt by the unfair world and the fact she could survive only because she was partly the same as rest. Because of him and his family, the Underground became more and more home for Raina and soon she quit school, appearing in Upper city only to get more money and supplies from her mother.
Now she is also part time model and idol, the mysterious girl of New York that no one knows much about. It is only to gain more money and help her real home. That is the theater she plays every day in both worlds and knows that there is no escape from this image she has set her self up.
[-Other; Short summary of everything - she is part time model and idol in Upper New York but lives at Lower one. Every month on certain dates she appears up there and does her job.
She doesn't know of her real family but considers Ryan and his family as her own.
And she looks completely different from what you see now.
Also, because she had to gain her rank by doing what popular kids demanded from her for a while, she is not your innocent little girl anymore. She has had her first night with guy, first hangover, first time using drugs and all. One can be happy she is not gotten addicted to any of that.
[-Pictures; [None real, as she comes purely from my fantasy but this could be reference:
[~X~]
